Haiz.. this few days real sad sia.. heart everyday breaking.. hmz.. no choice lahz.. tis month reali not good for me lorz.. but no choice.. i created the problems.. i myself created those troubles.. Maybe this serve myself right for what happen..
hmz.. it's not right to lie to someone that u reali love.. cos it will hurt them more if they learn about the truth.. haiz.. i lied to someone that i reali love.. and i felt veri bad inside.. i know that i souldn't lie to him.. i should be honest and ture to him.. but when i get panic, i always do the first things that come to my mind.. it's a white lie.. but it's still wrong.. i'm sorry darling.. i know sorry is not the word.. cos what u wanna see is action.. but i juz wan to apologise to u.. and i never wan to lie to u anymore.. cos it reali dun feel good inside me as well.. but anyway, last night reali feel so good.. cos i've told and clarify with my dar dar.. i tell him abt everything.. and frm now on, i dun wan to lie to him.. cos firstly, whenever i lie, he seems to know it.. and secondly, it doesn't feel good when i lie to him.. cos all along he has been truthful and honest with me, treated me so well.. dote on me so much.. it's reali not right to lie to him anymore.. anyway, i'm reali sorry darling.. reali reali.. i'll show u that i reali am sorry..
haiz.. these few night never sleep oso.. got dark dark rings under my eyes.. so ugly.. but got or dun ahve oso so ugly.. so doesn't matter much.. hmz.. but have to wear sunglass when i go out.. for 2 days.. cos nv sleep for 2 nights.. quarrelling with my dar dar.. then i reali made him so angry, disappointed.. and sad.. it's my fault.. haiz.. dun wan talk abt it le..
hmz.. i'm reali glad that i've found such a nice dar dar.. but i think it's his misfortune to have known me.. cos i brings nth but troubles.. heartaches.. and headache to him.. i reali regret for what i've done.. but i hope that it's not too late to turn back the time.. and it's not too late to amend what i've done wrong..
haiz.. dun wanna write anymore.. feel like crying again.. can feel that tears is swelling up.. i think i juz stop here.. what i feel most like doing now is to see my precious.. to be in the warmth of his arms.. *sigh* but i dunno if it's possible anymore.. cos i ruined it all..
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ABOUT ME
Name: Candida Ng
Nickname: TangTang
Age: 21
EggCrack: 15.01.1988
Profession: Designer In Training
Contact: luv_candy_88@hotmail.com
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Chanel Wallet
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Tiffany & Co Ring