Wow.. so long never write blog le worz.. got miss me anot?? must miss horz.. reali must worz.. lolx.. dun care me too much.. so much stress.. until i siao liaoz worz.. haiz.. so sad sia.. got so many things to do.. and i haven started doing it yet.. what the heck..?? haven start doing art oso.. siao liao le lahz.. tuesday paper and i haven start and i'm still sitting here slacking.. but what to do?? no inspiration.. so sianz.. no mood to do.. dunno what to draw.. sia lahz.. like that how can worz?? hmz.. this month.. haiz.. i dunno what to say.. got so many things.. so many clarification.. haiz.. i reali dunno what i'm writing.. i'm so last.. so confused.. sobb sobb.. sometime i just wish time could turn back and freeze.. i don't want to go into the future.. i just wan to stay behind.. Somehow there is nothing for me to look forward to in the future.. haiz.. sad sad sad.. cheat here.. bluff there.. lie and lie.. what for??? does doing all those make life happier?? easier??? No.. it does not.. so why bother to do all those??? one white lie can bring about another lie.. and then another.. how many lies must one tell to cover up for the first one??? Why must people lie?? maybe bcos they realy cannot help it when they are nervous... It's hard to say.. Sometime a lie can help instead of hurt.. Haiz.. i dunno what i'm writing oso.. just blabbering away.. maybe i stay around too long feeling sorry for myself.. for everything around.. sad sad.. i don't want to mentioned what happen to me for these past days here.. i dont' find that there's a need.. Y?? cos what has done cannot be undo.. so heart breaking.. heartaches.. heart pain.. and i think that there is nothing that can cure my heart.. the scar is there.. so destoryed.. I hope that everything will be back to normal.. i wish that nothing has ever happen.. i reali dunno what i want now.. what am i going to do.. i'm so lost.. so confuse.. just like a sheep lost in a meadow.. i dunno what i did is right.. i don't want to regret but i think for now, i will.. but somehow i rather regret cos i think i owe him too much till i dunno how to repay.. he may say that it's okiez and there's no need to repay but to me, what i feel deep down inside me is that i'm the worse person on earth.. worse person that ever live.. he did sacrifice alot for me and i know.. i appreiate it.. but what have i ever do for him?? NOTHING.. nothing at all i can say.. maybe leaving him and letting him have a new life, a life without me is better.. At least he don't have to feel so bad whenever i made him angry.. whenever i made him sad.. I'm sorry for what i have done in the past.. All that i have do wrong.. I'm sorry dar.. sorry.. i'm sure life would be alot more better with me.. and i know that there is smeone out there who is willing to look after u.. the way that i can never do.. i wish u all the best.. forget me.. forget everything abt me.. those memories.. it's not worth to remember.. especially me.. I think i don't wan to write anymore.. can't hold back the tears i keep behind all night.. i jus wan to be left alone now.. all alone.. i jus wan to feel left out.. wan to be outcast.. i wan to be lonely.. to be alone by myself.. i'm sorry.. that's all that i can say now..
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ABOUT ME
Name: Candida Ng
Nickname: TangTang
Age: 21
EggCrack: 15.01.1988
Profession: Designer In Training
Contact: luv_candy_88@hotmail.com
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iPod
Boots
Camera
Holiday Trip A new Desktop
Chanel Wallet
Repaint my Room
Tiffany & Co Ring