Is money everything?? Even in relationship?? I know i did promise him a LV wallet but can't he wait?? It's not that i dun wanna gif it to him.. Juz a delay in time.. Is it really so hard to wait?? Sometime i really wonder what kind of relationship are we actually having.. Is it something that uses money to continue?? Is it something that can never last?? I did ask myself about this many time, do i really love him to give him everything that i have?? Do i want him so much that no matter what he do or say to me, i can ignore??
It really breaks my heart at times when he says those hurtful words.. It feels like he had took a knife and stab it straight into my heart.. He did not even care my feelings and my pride.. why should i hold back and endure those kind of insults? why should i keep quiet and act as if nothing had happen?? Why am i still loving him when all he do is hurt me??
For i can say, he treats me good and do care for me.. but on the other hand, when he's angry, he'll start to turn a cold shoulder towards me.. he then starts to talk "rubbish".. Saying that i don't treat him well.. I'm not good to him.. I always end up speechless.. But not bcos what he says is true but instead, i'm heartbroken and saddness overwhelms me as i cannot believe he thinks that way of me.. After all that i've done for him.. He's not touched at all?? Not even a single teeny weeny bit?? What's kind of attitude is this?? Is this the way he treats me?? Is it right?? Sometime i do ask myself.. why do i still stay around and SHUT UP?!?
WHAT HAPPEN YESTERDAY?? Had a tiff on (17/11/05) and somehow almost broke up.. He seems to have time for everything except me.. and i on the other hand was fed up with what he had done..Stupid promises.. What's the point in making them when he don't even intend to keep?? Anyway, hang up the phone crying.. Called my ex to talk then after some time around midnight, he at last call me back and we talked about it.. Back together happily again.. Called me in the morning( 18/11/05).. It was so sweet.. But what's the point?? Going to end up quarrel again.. *sigh* What day i called him around 8.00pm.. Was disappointed again.. What the heck, he was playing game again and don't want to talk to me.. Is game really that important that he forget about his girlfriend?? Felt very piss off then hang up the phone.. On the train(8.30pm) he called me back saying that he;s gng to sleep.. Then i of course make noise.. He then say he wait for me to reach home then accompany to talk.. (8.45pm) While having dinner, he msg me.. HE: "Baby, how much are u transfering to me on monday??" ME: "How much u need to buy ya wallet??" HE: "How much u want to give me??" ME: "Not sure yet.. but i can only transfer u the money on either monday or tuesday when my frenz gif me back the money.." HE: "What!? U lend ur frenz the money first instead of giving it to me?? And moreover, u did not tell me?? " ME: "She is my long time frenz and that time she really need the cash so since i have it then i lend it to her first.. " HE: "What if she dun wan to give it back to u?? Or she drag very very long?? ME: " I trust her and moverover, she's one of my good frenz.. Don't think that way when u don't know the situation.."
--End Of Conversation--
What happen after the conversation?? What will happen to the me and him?? Will we still be together?? Will i still keep quiet about everything?? Only Time can shows........
==TO BE CONTINUED==
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Name: Candida Ng
Nickname: TangTang
Age: 21
EggCrack: 15.01.1988
Profession: Designer In Training
Contact: luv_candy_88@hotmail.com
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iPod
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Chanel Wallet
Repaint my Room
Tiffany & Co Ring