Wednesday, December 21, 2005
hmz.. school again.. why?? i don't wanna go to school.. was late for assembly today.. cos my dear frenz randy need to bake his cake.. hahaz.. (nv blame u.. ) only bimbo and nimbo turn up for assembly.. so pathetic.. only 2 people.. then now in class.. there's only 5 of us.. woo.. cool right?? *sigh* anyway, many are nt here.. i guess it's bcos they think that class start at 10am.. nowadays there's nth much for me to say.. cos everyday is a routine..
haiz.. jus now they say me again.. so what if i never go break with them?? it does not make any difference oso what.. why must they say something like that?? it's so mean lorz.. and moreoever, they're the one giving me face colour.. then what more u expect from me?? *sigh* "roti prata peng".. WTF.. can they just stop being so childish?? grow up please.. don't make things so diffcult..
Randy made hard boiled eggs with bread for us during break.. thanx worz.. it's nice.. although at times it may seems like a little thing.. but on the other hand, it does means alot..
now back in class.. i'm so bored.. Foo jus told us that tml we got interview for the CORE group thingy.. i do have the urge to join.. but on the other hand, thinking back.. my portfolio is like.. erm.. nt reali standard.. cos no arrange and scan.. why must last minute tell me?? i do wan to join!! but i'm scare too.. i don't wan to be thrown down from 12 floor.. ahh!! Zeus and Hades.. give me strength.. tell me what to do..
*yawn*.. i'm so tired.. how i wish i was at home.. *sigh*.. anyway, my dearie called me yesterday.. hmz.. although talked for awhile only cos i'm tired.. but i'm glad too.. i miss u alot know.. though i know i selom call or msg u cos i was afraid that i disturb u, but i reali reali misses u worz.. sometime when u call me, i do hesitate when hanging up the phone.. somehow i really want to talk to u.. but i don't know what to say at times.. hmz.. hope to see u soon dear.. u tk care.. stil aching? i massage for u wan anot?? lolx.. hao lahz.. i stop here.. hear from u soon worz.. muackz..
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To: Randy
*Oops* i'm sorry that i misunderstood what u trying to tell me.. me too want to end the problem and let them all click together.. but it's kinda hard.. (u should know what i mean).. all along we're seeing faces.. black ones.. and i agree that we both are enjoying no matter when or what.. hahaz~ maybe crazy people thinks alike.. hmz. don't worry.. i won't forget u, neither would i "pang sei" u worz.. u better don't okie horz.. lolx.. ya also all that i have left worz.. hmz.. so don't leave me alone horz.. i'll cry.. hmz.. don't worry.. i will fight back if i really really need.. but if i can i try not to.. hmz.. although u don't seems like u not enough sleep.. but u also have to sleep more and takce care of urself.. hmz.. i'll put chocolate chips next time i bake cake ba.. okiez?? yahz.. we all prepare food for each other.. like that then fun mahz.. (^_^) Zeus and Hades will be glad too if we're all so harmony.. may god bless u..
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Love Candy
A Never Ending Love
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
hmz.. tired.. got PE this morning.. ran 2 round the school.. then after that played basketball with my group and randy's group.. woo.. at least somehow they can click.. so after that we got our break.. yesterday night i baked cake.. so brought some for my friends.. nv try so somehow ask them nice anot.. then they say nt bad.. (^_^)
*sigh* today class is so boring.. suppose to be able to go back around 3.00pm but it ended up that i can only leave at 4.30pm.. Oh Zeus and Hades.. send that Teo far away.. don't ever let him return.. he's the one who always spoil my schedule.. shit!!! in class whole day so photoshop and illusrtator.. haiz.. everyday do the same stuff.. sad sad..
went to J8 for lunch with Randy they all again.. but without both the bimbo and the himbo.. oops* then after that went walking around.. so sianz.. go back class after lunch then have to do those shit again.. sobb sobb..
think today blog wil be short.. kinda tired writing.. not in the mood i guess.. oh yahz.. forget to say.. i saw ali yesterday.. woo.. stil as shuai as ever.. hahaz~ erm.. stil as tall as ever.. humph.. nv reali change much.. just that she talk less ba i guess.. not as talkative as last time.. sad sad..
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To: Randy
hmz.. yahz.. i too agree that we should nt blame each other anymore.. cos it's not really our fault anyway.. people come out with different things whereby some would agree and some would not.. guess we don't on the groupy thingy.. i know that we should not treat it as i nv see it.. but it's just that to notice it hurts.. i did not run away.. jus don't wanna fight or argue with them.. i know that if i say anything, it's sure to ba chaos.. u know.. on the other hand, ending it fast and soon does it also means ending the friendship?? it's hard to know what others are thinking.. hahaz~ don't worry.. i know that ya fed up.. but don't forget.. u got me horz.. *smile* whatever happen in class, i'll stil be ya frenz worz.. don't bcos of them and make urself unhappy.. Zeus and Hades will look over u too..
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Love Candy
A Never Ending Love
Monday, December 19, 2005
It has been 3 days since i last update.. there isn't any much changes but things were going any better with my group.. Went to school with Randy this morning as usual.. Talked about alot of things on the train.. Somehow something make me sad.. Whenever we talked about our group, there are things that i do not know how to explain.. It jus changes my mood totally.. Leaving me feeling lonely and upset.. Why must friends be classified into "your group" and "my group"?? Why can't they just sit down and talk happily? *sigh*
Just now over hard then saying that Randy "Roti Prata" then another one say.. the one beside him even worse.. "prata with egg".. knew what they're actually referring to.. Somehow a gush of saddness wash over me.. Why do they say something like that?? It's not that i wan things to become like that.. And moreoever, it's u all who gave me the cold shoulder in the first place.. i did all i can for a change.. but i get none.. and worse still, the war get colder..
Class is as usual.. doing Adobe Illustrator.. Can't Teo do something more fun?? much more interesting than always drawing?? *sigh* It has been quite some time since he starts teaching us.. and to me, i think that i'm no better in knowing him compare to when i first did.. He's still a time bomb which may blow up anytime..
Break.. somehow i was not keen in going down but no choice have to as Teo have to lock the door.. (i think the teacher is scare that we steal the com..Lolx) anyway, today i went for break not with my group but with Randy they all without kelvin and jason.. sat down in the canteen talked about some stuff.. and somehow the subject turn into Shi Min.. What can i say about her?? i really dunno.. She has change.. but into something beyond what i expect.. Pls Zeus and Hades, change her back into herself.. I beg of u..
So now back in class blogging again.. tagging the tagboard in mine and Randy's blog.. I think i do agree with what he says.. If that is how they want to treat me then it's better to retreat early..
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To: Edwin
I know it always start as friends but no all.. When i say friends, i mean pure friends.. I'll choose wisely.. I dun wanna end up like u.. nor u wanna to end up like the past again.. It's not that i PENG.. I mean it's cong they all who gave me the cold shoulder first.. what more u want me to do?? i've been kinda like suffering.. in a way, they totally ignore me and i myself don't even know what the heck happen.. ya also not around.. everytime leave me alone and stil wan to say me.. sometime i already feel like crying already.. about me and Cong.. not i dun wan to say anything.. but it's jus that i don't know what is wrong.. what can i say?? i don't need people to mend that hole for me.. you think i don't want to settle it fast?? you put urself in my shoes.. if that is the way they treat u and ya all alone.. how would u feel?? u too take care of uself worz.. and hope to see u in school soon..
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To: Randy
First, i want to thank you for being there for me.. Without ya accompany these few days, i'm not sure how i can survive school expecially now when things like that happen.. I too enjoy ya company when it come to shopping.. Somehow we do click and like what we call ourselves.. We're shopping king and queen.. Hahaz.. And want to tell u that it's not u that cause the trouble in my "group" because when trouble is coming no matter what happen they'll still come they same.. so don't blame yourself.. i do agree on the "Red Eye" thing but we can't help it cos we really click too well.. hmz.. actually in the past we're already like kinda click.. it's only because of the relationship thing that drift our friendship apart.. so i guess, now we're back again.. the 5S!!! yup.. i agree.. they'll be always looking out for us.. like hunter looking for their prey.. shoot us any time.. anyway, there's no need to thank me.. i think we should thank God more.. Cos it's he who bring us together and let us click so well.. so i hope that we're stay this way or maybe even better friends.. i'm happy to know u.. (^_^)..
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Think i'll stop here for now.. gonna blog later if necessary.. Dearie, stil no msg or call from u today.. sope to hear from u soon too.. i'm really sad and moody today.. i miss u lots.. I enjoy talking to u last night.. and be careful when u move around.. i guess ya muscle is stil aching.. muackz~
Love Candy
A Never Ending Love
Thursday, December 15, 2005
What another day.. woke up around 6.20am.. oh my.. cannot seems to hear my alarm clock nowadays.. why?? sobb sobb.. maybe cos i am too tired le ba.. anyway, wash up and changed.. actuali stil have time for breakfast while waiting for Randy call but didn't have anything.. not even a glass of water.. guess i'm not hungry ba..
so went to school with Randy.. talked on the train.. saying abt the exchange gifts thingy.. somehow nice ba.. at least got the Christmas atmosphere.. *sigh* but i spent alot of money this month.. *cry* i'm going to declare backrupt soon.. *oops* saw Cong they all at Mac this morning.. so told Randy that i meet him in sch.. if nt later ppl say i peng here and there how?? Cong and me oso nv talk much today.. haiz.. especially in the morning.. not a word.. awww!!!
so in class.. sianz lahz.. got test.. have to draw in computer.. stil nt enough.. we have to sketch that on paper.. what the.. why must he always do thing that is so bo liao?? so no choice.. have to draw.. test mahz.. then after that break lorz.. went to eat.. dun reali have the appetite oso.. *haiz* dunno what is happening to me..
suan le.. dun wanna talk abt sch le.. the more i say the more upset i become.. *sobb* life is no longer the same like before.. i feel that there's nothing much for me to look forward to..
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To: Edwin
Very funny right?? Make full use of.. Next time i don't help u then u know.. *sigh* Sure anot?? any present also can?? then i gif u a box of tissue can anot?? kekez.. it's not pushing lorz.. it's jus that sometime veri hard to open my mouth to say.. and moreoever, it may hurt someone worz.. horz?? i dun wan anyone to be upset bcos of me or what i say.. me and Cong?? i dunno lehz.. he doesn't seems to want to talk to me.. and moreoever, he seems to be keeping something from me.. he's Esmond.. not DEsmond.. but what is there abt him and me worz?? i mean frenz onli mahz.. why he so sensitive?? i oso dunno what is happening.. jus felt sad lorz.. so somehow these days, hang out with Randy group oso.. cos dunno how to face Cong.. dunno what to talk to him abt oso.. then even lunch oso go out with Randy.. actuali fun lahz.. somehow.. i think better than with them in a way.. at least we have fun lorz.. not like always everyone show face.. then oso went shopping with them.. cute lahz.. they all.. so now in a spot.. dunno how le.. sobb sobb pengz.. wah kao.. u call urself frenz ar.. spare u my thoughts?? cannot share mehz?? me now so sad.. this saturday?? u not working mehz?? i'll be at east coast.. u wan u go there and find me lorz.. but must tell me in advance oso.. so that i'll bring ya stuff.. *sigh*
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think i'll stop here le.. need to continue my drawing..
Love Candy
A Never Ending Love
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
Hmz.. Gosh!! woke up around 6.20am this morning.. Zeus.. i'm gonna be late.. Quickly jump up from bed and into the bathroom.. wash up.. bathe.. then change quickly.. luckily stil got time.. Randy not ready yet.. hahaz~ so waited for his call.. hmz.. at last "ring..ring..!!" met him at woodlands MRT station.. *yawn* these days so tired.. kept on yawning.. like crying like that..
He called me last night.. *smile* talked for awhile.. thought he won't call me ar first.. and was kinda battling in my head whether or not to call him.. somehow a little thing makes a difference.. Sweet i can say.. but stil i think there is something missing.. it's not like those good old days.. i jus cannot explain what is missing.. *sigh* but i do appreciate the effort that he put in.. and i'm glad.. i really want to give a try.. sorry didn't answer ya call this morning.. cos was sleeping.. he called me after his run.. it was a brief call.. nth much was said.. but it's nice just to hear ya voice i guess.. so when i was at the station, he call me again!!! kekez.. so nice.. muackz~
so went to school.. late for assembly.. ahh!! but nvm.. hahaz~ anyway, went to class.. first lesson is IT.. Siti lesson.. never really did much.. cos did most of the stuff yesterday le.. so somehow use the time to read.. have been reading this book for quite sometime.. it's a nice book.. the title was "JUDITCH GOULD".. talking about a young and lovely woman who is the head of an international magazine empire.. women envy her and men desire her but behind her ravishing beauty and her brilliant brain lies the memory of a nightmare. a nightmare she determined to avenge.. it's kinda exciting.. telling about war.. what the Nazi does last time and what the kind of live she live in the past.. those where horrors that haunt her.. and even though now that she has become successful, she would never forget.. and plan her revenge..
later i'll write a little about the part which i kinda like.. hmz.. so sianz here.. haiz.. *yawnz* have been doing my work all along.. went to lunch around 12plus with Randy group.. hmz.. went to J8 and eat.. saw TEO there again.. what the...!!! he have us track izzit?? i wonder.. lolx.. so after lunch, did a little shopping around.. Came up with the title.. "shopping king".. "shopping queen" hahaz.. *pengz* so later help Pei xuan and Cheng Yi with the nick name oso.. "Gossip sisters" whereby one is gossip one another is two.. jus like tha banana in pyjamas..
back in class.. nowadays dun reali feel like talking much.. maybe cos i too tired le.. so draw again.. edit those that i've drawn.. and read between stopping.. the book quite nice.. somehow intend to finish reading it by the end of the week.. woo~
think i'll jus stop here ba.. dun feel like writing anymore.. want to read my book again.. tk care.. tata..
Love Candy
A Never Ending Love
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
Sianz lahz~!!!! What am i doing in school? Gosh!!! I dun wanna be here.. God!!! Please send me back home~!!! i dun wanna be here with that stupid teacher.. *sigh*
Having a bad headache since yesterday.. OMG!!! Alpha and Omega.. where are u man.. haiz.. what can i say?? came to school today in the morning around 9am.. went to school with Randy.. met him at woodlands station.. hmz.. talk alot alot.. kekez.. then after that didn't tk PE.. cos nt feeling well.. *sigh* dying soon sia.. after PE went for class.. sux man!!! what the hell.. kept doing the same thing everyday over and over again.. why is it so?? why can't he do something meaningful? anyway, we got to draw product and label them again.. hmz.. sianz 1/2..
so lunch went to out with Randy group.. cong and TEO!!! ouch!! nv dream that i wil eating lunch with him.. anyway he bought us drink.. abit paiseh.. wan to gif hm back money but he refuse.. pengz* so now back in class.. i dunno what to say sia.. everyday is like a routine.. sobb sobb..
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To Edwin
No need to thank me.. what are friends for right?? hmz.. not i dun wanna say anything.. just that i dunno where to start worz.. want to scold her.. but later next time see each other so awakward.. then how worz?? u sure u don't bother mehz?? kept asking this.. ask that sia.. like that wil call dun bother mehz?? yahz.. i understand.. but.. haiz~ nvm.. what present?? when u receive le then u wil know de lahz.. u think i wil tell u now mehz?? hahaz~ hao lahz.. dun tell lorz.. me and cong oso nv reali talk.. dunno why oso.. he seems kinda angry with me worz.. suan le lahz. u ar.. stil no change de sia.. suan here.. suan there.. what's the point?? *pengz* anyway, hope to see u in school soon.. tk care horz.. recover fast!! (^_^)
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think i'll stop blog here.. these few days have been thinking alot.. what do guys really want?? what do i really want too..?? time really changes everything.. even feelings ba i guess.. somehow have been getting colder and colder.. i myself oso dunno what is happening.. at times, felt like my heart hurt even if it's a little thing he say or do.. am i being too sensitive?? i hope not ba.. wish the situation will change to be like last time or even better.. God.. pls answer my prayers.. i really need someone to listen.. i need a shoulder to cry on.. and most of all i need u..
Love Candy
A Never Ending Love
Monday, December 12, 2005
Back i school again.. So tired.. Foo oso ask me why so tired this morning.. haiz.. then ask me whether i working izzit.. then jus kinda entertain him say yahz.. yahz.. hahaz~
so back in class.. first thing sign in msn.. but no one there yet.. then start to blog.. hmz.. it's a routine already.. *sigh*
today really dunno wha the teacher is saying.. sobb sobb.. dun wan blog le.. sianz.. maybe update tml ba..
Love Candy
A Never Ending Love
Sunday.. *sigh* stil no phone call or msg from him.. should i call?? or maybe he does not want to talk to me..
Went to find Esmond today.. haiz.. his house like garbage chute man.. everything is lying everywhere.. all around the place.. haiz.. somehow felt something funny inside me.. somehow he reminds me of Cong.. all the same pattern de lahz.. hahaz.. no wonder they frenz lahz.. always play basketball together sia.. so kinda pei him from around 1pm till 4pm like that lorz.. then after that he go play basketball.. i go meet Keith buy things at westmall..
walk around west mall.. eat sakae sushi.. then actuali wan see show again.. but not many nice movie that i've not watched worz.. so walk around.. went to Watson bought alot of hings again worz.. haiz.. broke le lahz.. then after that went to his house.. see his mummy.. oops* lolx.. so stayed around till 9+pm.. after that went home..
reach home the continue to wrap my gifts lorz.. haiz.. sad lahz.. got some present for my group members.. Cheng.. cong.. Edwin.. Geraline.. and Randy oso although u nt my group lahz.. *sigh* christmas suppose to be a happy occassion but kinda seems like getting sadder everyday..
hmz.. at last he called me.. *sigh* but stil i make tk the first move to call him in the afternoon.. playing mahjong.. somehow let me think of Don again.. that was how he treat me last time.. somehow give me the same feeling.. always no call no msg.. play game.. play mahjong.. that was why i broke up with don though i do love him alot lasttime but i can no longer endure.. *sobb*
think i jus stop here.. what lies in the future i dunno.. jus hope that history will not repeat itself again.. i dun wan to go through another torture like tt.. don't wanna talk abt it.. feel like my heart is breaking again.. nowadays is seems so fragile..
Love Candy
A Never Ending Love
Woke up early this morning.. hmz.. can't seems to sleep past 10am nowadays no matter how tired i am.. anyway, msg wei lun ask him wan acc me go shopping anot.. then he say gng escape.. haiz.. then nv jio sia.. then after awhile Norman msg me.. ask me to pei him go harbour front to buy camera.. so agree..
met him at Jurong East and took a bus from there.. reach harbour front le then walk around.. poor him.. must pei me shopping worz.. but think he is oso looking around.. so bought alot alot of things.. got stuff like photo frame.. zipper chain.. perfumes.. sunglasses.. ashtray.. glitter bathe set.. make up.. purse.. wallet.. stationary.. books.. games.. small drawer.. chocolate.. sweets.. clothings.. shoes.. lighter.. and many many more.. so walk around.. went to watch a show oso.. "chicken little" worz.. kinda lame but quite cute lahz.. interesting.. laughing through the whole show.. dun mind watching it again.. then around 9+pm Edwin call me.. ask me go drink coffee.. haiz.. he sad lahz.. broke up.. then so many thingy happen.. so i waited for him at Dobby ghuat.. at last he come sia.. so went to starbuck.. drink kopi worzx.. then after that remember i bought so many presents but forgot to get wrapping paper.. shit.. so ask him pei me go get.. so we went to Precious thought.. bought quite a few numbers of wrapping paper.. then after that Edwin bought somethng for me worz.. *so touched* hahaz..
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To Edwin:
thanks for the present.. It's the thought that counts.. hahaz.. lame right?? hmz.. anyway, don't brood over it so much.. whenever there is a start, there'll always be an end.. it's just whether when will it be.. get it over and live happily man.. all i can say that she is not worth it.. she don't even appreciate u or what u did.. somehow all along u seems like a money plant to her.. then what for?? u print or grow money izzit?? no of cos.. i'm sure u can get someone much much more better than her de.. (^_^) *smile*
and horz.. stop saying me le can anot.. humph.. sad one know.. say til like that.. *cry* so mean.. but sometime in school without ya "suaning" around somehow it seems very dull and boring around.. hahaz.. sianz sia..
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hmz.. then after that took a cab home.. cos carry too many things le worz.. kekez.. reach home.. bathe.. then start to wrap presents.. start wrapping around 11+ gng 12mn.. then finish around3+gng to 4am.. woo.. so many man.. count le.. got around 20 over prestents.. but somehow stil cannot sleep.. open a bottle of "long island iced tea" then call wei lun to chat will i fall asleep..
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FeeLings:
Hmz.. dunno why.. haven been waiting for a phone call or a msgs but kinda didn't get any.. do u really don't wanna talk to me anymore?? if it is so.. jus tell me.. don't let me feel so empty.. sometime i dunno whether to love or hate.. *sigh* i am such a failure!!!!
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Love Candy
A Never Ending Love
haiz.. went to school for 4 hours lesson on friday morning.. Merlinda lesson~ quite okiez lahz.. not as bad as Teo one i guess..
after that go home.. change then met Max for movie.. hmz.. he's a okie guy.. who's friendly i can say.. no air though he knows much more than me.. always encourage me alot.. esp in class and school wise.. give me alot of advice.. Thanx frenz.. (^_^) nv regret knowing u worz..
actuali wanted to meet my dear.. but he msg me say his boss give him extra work to do.. so off he went then.. haiz.. hmz.. so met up with my one old frenz.. so long never see le.. go out walk walk.. then after that dearie call me.. say want to meet me.. pengz* short notice.. what to do.. so after that went over to his house nearby.. it was around 9+ i think.. haiz.. acc him for awhile.. sweet lahz..
after that went home.. bought alot of thingy.. christmas mahz.. need to get alot alot of presents.. for my group and others worz.. *sigh* spend alot of money this month.. gng broke soon..ouch!!
Love Candy
A Never Ending Love
Wednesday, December 07, 2005
Ahh!! So happy this morning.. My dearie gave me wake up call worz.. kekez.. Anyway went out with my mum take train.. she says want to go shopping with me this weekend.. (everytime say only) *sigh*
Reach Mac around 7.35am.. early man.. waited for the rest to arrive.. Geraline and Cheng already told me that they will be late.. so after awhile Edwin arrive.. At last he decided to come to school man.. (got love no need to study).. anyway, 7.50am le but Cong not here yet worz.. call him the first time neer ans.. then call second time.. told me he at home.. slping.. got sch for what.. then i turn around he's behind me.. *pengz* bluff me sia.. then after that we went for assembly.. sianz..
Now having first lesson.. blogging again.. *smile* while surfing the net for inspiration, i was listening to 93.3fm.. somehow heard one song.. "ai de ke nen - ye qian wen" suddenly let me think about alot fo things.. *mood swing again* kinda feeling empty inside.. no more warm feeling.. i don't know why these says i kept feeling this way.. my heart seems like breaking alittle by little.. slowly the warm feeling inside me drift away..
Haiz.. dun feel like blogging today.. hand so cold.. freezing.. will write when i'm better..
Love Candy
A Never Ending Love
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
Boring school again!!! i just don't feel like coming to school.. it's sux!!! a waste of time and energy.. don't really understand the things that Teo say.. almost the whole of yesterday lesson, i figure out the adobe illustrator on my own.. sometime i wonder.. what for come.. *sigh*
Went to school this morning and reached mac around 8.40am.. "he" gave me a call at last this morning.. though i knew that he came back yesterday.. was glad that he stil remember me.. remember to call me.. but we somehow seems drifting apart.. and the gap between us is getting larger and larger.. there are questions which i wanted to ask him.. but somehow no words came out when i talk.. i wonder.. what we really are.. i've waited for ya return but u gave me a despair feelings when i talk to u.. why is it so?? i myself does not know the answer too.. there was once u did as me whether i wanna be your gf anot.. i told u that i did not know.. and i asked u the same question back.. u gave me a disappointing answer which i was hoping all along that u will not say that.. but in the end, u said it.. maybe it's fate that is playing on me.. fooling me.. what more can i say?? do i have a choice?? Althene.. Pkease help me.. Save me!!!
anyway side track again.. went to school.. got PE lesson.. ran the school compound one round.. (almost tk my breath away..) then after that do some cool down exercise..stretch till my skin wan to torn already.. my bones are breaking.. and my back is aching.. think i had not run for a long time already.. hmz.. nope~ i jus ran last week only.. after those stretch and tear we went to the hall for badminton.. Played 2 on 2 with Randy.. Geraline.. Chen Yi.. At first i tag team with Geraline.. then after around 1/2 hour later change.. I tag with Randy and beat Geraline their group.. Lolx.. We're call prince( wang zi) and they are the frog(qing wa) oops* anyway, Poor Geraline gal fell down on her butt.. *sigh* After PE went for a short break.. drank 2 glasses of watermelon juicce.. cool.. so hot and thristy man..
PE over le then now what?? Teo lesson of cos.. it's so bored.. we're gonna do adobe photoshop again.. and i have to start figuring out the keys and stuffs again.. anyway, before i really start lesson i was told to write something about myself.. my views and feelings of the school and class.. the socirty.. my plans.. direction and steps to achieve my goals.. state how many person there is in my famil as well as their jobs.. last but no least, i've gotta draw myself and my friends.. gosh!! *sigh* so kinda entertain him so write a little criticising him more i think.. at last start lesson after some commotion.. but don't understand what Teo is saying as well.. so started figuring out the different tools in the tool box.. hmz.. having a hard time..
Around 11.40pm.. Lunch!!! went down with Cong.. Geraline and Cheng.. Ate rice.. then after that Cong went out with Ivy to eat.. so Left with the three of us.. went to the student hub.. but only stayed there for awhile as the place is too occupied today.. so in the end we sat at the foyer and spent the rest of the lunch time.. before lunch end Edwin call me.. did not turn up for school.. but send Da Sao to school.. that's so "sweet" of him right? Then he came up for awhile.. stayed outside and talked.. after that he went home.. i think.. so now.. i'm back in class.. stil struggling on how to use the software..
Sometime i not sure what is the real purpose of life.. Sometime life really have no meaning.. Everything seems to oppose u.. Not goes smoothly as the way u want it to be.. why does it have to be this way?? All i ever wanted to find someone whom i can share my joy.. sorrow and everything with.. but i seems like god.. everyone u send down for me is not the right one.. is not the one whom i want.. he's not the one who will take care of me.. or who needs me to take care.. i hope.. one day i will find that Mr.Right.. who will not break my heart time and again.. not i will not break his heart too.. My guys friends out there.. sorry abput what i did to u in the past.. but all i can is that i hope u find ya Miss Right too.. cos i am not that one for u.. i wish u all the best.. and although we cannot be together.. but we'll always be friends.. good friends.. take care guys!!
Think i'll stop here then.. don't know why my mood changing again.. nowadays mood swing quite easily.. get upset amost instently.. I'll blog again when i feel better..
Love Candy
A Never Ending Love
Monday, December 05, 2005
another day of boredom.. went to school this morning.. but somehow i felt as if i'm missing something.. am i alright?? no!! i felt a stab in my heart.. and it hurts.. somehow it seems like i'm holding back tears.. but i dunno what happen.. why am i crying?? is it bcos of something that cong told me this morning?? did he lie to me.. i dunno.. i started to doubt myself.. maybe i should not believe.. not put so much into it..
anyway in class now.. DRAW again.. shit him lahz.. say wan to start adobe illustrator and photoshop.. what the F**k.. why should we always draw and draw no stop?? it's not as if i dunno how to use pencil and paper.. stop please.. i cannot take it already.. feel like slapping his face.. gif him one big hand across his stupid face.. ahhh!!! ass.. 10 drawing?? ask him to fuck spider lahz.. i dun wan to talk to him le lahz.. "u okie??" "u alright??"" dun ask lahz.. if not later i really hit u.. of cos i'm not okiez.. not alright.. all bcos of u teacher.. stupid teacher.. can't u teach what u suppose u?? shit him lahz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
dun wan blog now le lahz.. later then see how ba..
Love Candy
A Never Ending Love
Hmz..weekend at last.. been busy.. went out on friday night.. then reach home around sat morning.. so tired.. slept through sat then at night online.. talked to Edwin.. then he start his da sao.. haiz..
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To: Edwin
If loving is so miserable.. then don't.. it's not suppose to be like that.. Will letting her go be more better for both of u?? Sometime loving someone doesn't need to be together.. so dun always say should u or should u not.. all decision lies within u.. and follow ya heart.. u urself knows what is good for u.. and think before u ake a choice.. dun live to regret it..
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got to know someone online.. dunno is it good or is it bad?? to me he is just like another Don.. when i talk to him, let me think abt the past alot.. sometime really feel like crying.. but what to do.. i gave it up.. so have to live with it.. hope that he is doing fine.. unlike me.. anyway, back to track.. he's is nice.. but i can sense that face under all those sweet lies.. if i were to accept then it would be heartbreak in the end.. i know it.. but the other part of me wanted to give it a try.. why?? is it bcos he reminds me of Don?? i dunno actuali how i feel at him.. but jus that i can't seems to believe what he said.. is it that he is not convincing enough.. or am i beyond hurt to trust again.. i dunno which.. somehow i dun wan to know too..
sunday is another day.. clear my room.. then went to granny house in the evening.. help her with some stuff.. then after that stayed to watch star award.. alot lame lahz.. some which i did not expect de gotten in.. anyway.. congrats to all..
think stop here ba.. no mood to write le..
Love Candy
A Never Ending Love
Thursday, December 01, 2005
Another day is over.. Another day is wasted i should say.. What the hell am i doing here in class blogging away.. staring into the monitor.. today is real bored. but thanx to Randy (now sitting beseide me oso blogging..)
Today my group so many ppl nv come.. suppose to have 7 members but onli 2 turn up.. me and max.. Cheng on MC.. Cong oso on MC i think.. then Geraline dunno why nv come.. haiz.. think she see her "dar" yesterday dunno do what til today dun wan come le.. Glenn nv come.. suppose he cannot tahan the teacher.. hahaz.. and lastly Edwin!!! haiz.. dun wan talk abt him.. call him this morning ask him wake up.. then he say he will go later in the afternoon.. but then.. nv come lorz.. throw me alone again.. *sigh*
Anyway, today in school got test.. woo.. start from 8.30am to 5.00pm.. dunno what kind of test sia.. tk one whole day.. hmz.. anyway, it's an open book test.. do stupid thing.. but anyway, no need the book oso.. cos all drawing one.. no diff.. haiz..
First break
Sit outside the Classroom with Randy.. he told me some stuff..but cannot tell one worz.. kekez.. then start to chat lorz.. hmz.. dun understnad why that stupid teacher must throw us out the class.. ask Jason to buy green tea for me.. Then later Max bring it up for me.. Wah Kao!!! He buy so many packet lorz.. got yeos one.. pokka got 2 but diff packaging.. then one can one.. haiz.. so many.. Pengz!!!
back to class then draw again lorz.. must finish all the thing by 5.00pm.. no choice lorz.. haiz.. sobb sobb.. my hand freezing.. the stupid ar con so cold..
Second Break ( Lunch)
didn't go for lunch.. so went to the next room.. Siti was there.. so sat there and play com.. haiz.. ask Siti for the grade for my IT fundamental for the 2 module.. Shit!! Should have grade sia.. i've got 87.. A know.. sad sad.. then talk to her.. talk abt Teo oso.. know some shocking stuff.. but dunno whether i should blog abt it anot.. nvm lah.. maybe next time then write..
draw again.. what to do.. no choice what.. suppose to learn how how to use com draw.. now it seems like i'm learning how to use hand to draw.. which i already know.. haiz.. what the hell is this?? can Alpha and Omega please help me??
Third Break
sit outside the classroom again.. luckily got my story book with me.. hmz.. talk to Randy.. then Pei Xuan say Max look like Elmo.. hahaz.. Elmo!!! Oh Gosh!!! what is the world becoming?? Glenn look like Sun XieZhi.. Jason look like Wang Ren Fu.. Poor Max.. look like ELMO!!! then later we talk abt HArry Potter.. exciting.. hmz.. later Teao talk to us.. then ask whether last time how's the class.. got fight anot.. and stuff like that.. then talk abt Iris teaching method.. say she outdated sia.. think is he lahz.. then i told him abt field trips.. then he say next time we will oso have.. but he will book bus then we go.. like primary school like that man.. cannot tahan him..
endure 2 more hours and i'm free.. woo.. faster do my work.. Randy sit next to me.. do together.. anyhow do oso lahz.. who got mood to do nice nice for him sia.. eveyday do the same thingy oso.. he not sianz mehz?? no choice lahz.. that's the onli thing he knows ba.. so faster do.. faster finish.. 4.10pm finish my work.. then ask him can go.. he say cannot.. cos must help the others.. haiz.. then what's the teacher for?? sit around and shake leg? ask him go home lahz.. salary i tk better.. dun wan blog le lahz.. so sianz.. cannot go home.. then keep me here and rot.. stupid teacher!!!
Today dunno why.. something that he say makes me sad again.. maybe sensitive ba.. or maybe i think too much.. suan le.. i think i know the answer in my heart le.. dun wan talk it.. make me sad again.. then feel like crying..today although is sianz.. but time seems to move fast.. maybe bcos weekend coming.. so that's why ba..
Think stop here.. bug him again see if he me go anot.. stop here.. blog again soon.. muackz.. miss u.. tk care..
Love Candy
A Never Ending Love
