What is my life becoming?? I feel like a failure.. what am i doing?? can someone jus tell me?? sometime, i jus wish i can die.. so that i do not have so much things to think abt.. not so headache..
Firstly, school is really getting on my nerve.. i cannot take it anymore.. the more i see TEO, the more he make me want to slap him.. can he stop revolving around me and my frenz and let us have peace when drawing and doing our stuffs.. it's irritating.. and it's rude to interfere and poke ya nose into people's business.. not ya problem bother so much for what worz?? it makes people hate and dislike u more and more.. sickening old fellow.. sigh.. no use to talk to FOO abt him oso.. teacher always side with each other.. what's the point.. want to see us all fail then they happy right?? anyway, many things happen in school.. especailly my groupie.. hmz.. think people nowadays getting more and more bored.. nth to do then wan to disturb us lahz.. sigh.. suan le lahz.. so childish.. but please.. TEO.. if u ever read my blog i wanna tell u this: I CANNOT TAKE IT ANYMORE.. YA REALLY AN IDIOT TILL THERE'S NO MORE HOPE FOR U.. WHATEVER HAPPEN MIND YA OWN STUPID BUSINESS THERE'S NTH THAT U NEED TO KNOW OR DO.. JUS TEACH YA THING AND F**K OFF.. STOP BEING LIKE A BEE BUZZING AROUND US HEAR THIS THEN SAY THAT.. JUS BUZZ OFF..
sigh.. life sucks.. everything sucks.. what the heck am i doing?? everyday is so f**king busy.. no time for this.. no time for that... and bcos of the stupid workshop i've been sick for so long.. what sia.. jus hope i can one day sleep then dun wake up.. away frm problem and trouble.. everyday oso so sad.. so water tap..
that day i saw my ex on the bus home.. he with his another ex gf oso.. sia lahz.. i almost kill him that day.. so big deal.. ex onli what.. same title as me.. wan to gif me the f**k face.. stupid gal.. my ex scare she scolkd or say what come up the bus see me then smile.. give me that "try no dunno me" kind of face.. shit him lorz.. then if like tt dunno him for real better.. i dun have that kind of frenz.. no point..
ALICIA so sorry that i never attend the thing.. cos i was real sick.. and my mum dun allow me to go.. so so sorry.. dun angry with me.. =( dui bu qi.. stil frenz right?? sigh.. i really never meant to not go worz.. really.. sorry..
RANDY i wan to say sorry worz.. sometime i shout at u.. but not bcos i did it on purpose.. i tend to have a temper.. and sometime i shout i oso dunno.. cos i abit deaf.. so bear with it k?? thanx for always being there for me too.. =)
WILSON i'm sorry to neglect u these days.. it's that i'm real busy with the stupid sch things.. try to understand me abit can?? i've got alot of things happening at home.. it's really getting me veri upset these days.. so easily i wil lose my temper.. so please be patient with me abit.. sorry.. =) i'll try my best..
KEITH i saw ya bloggie.. so poor thing.. but i can do not much to help u.. it reali makes me feel veri helpless.. but all i can say is that no matter what i will be there for u k?? what is done is already done jus don't make the same mistake again.. i know what ya going through now.. jus bear with it k?? i know u will one day succeed.. =) stop drinking lahz.. not good for u.. dun make me worry horz.. know u won't de lahz.. kekez..
i think i'll stop blogging here for now.. if not i dun think i'll end.. too many things to say.. to scold.. to complain.. and so many ppl to apologise to.. sobb sobb.. hope that my world will turn better..
Love Candy
A Never Ending Love
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
It's yet another boring day.. Another day wasted.. Why do i have to come to school?? waste time.. PE in the morning.. Played badminton.. then after that Teo lesson.. cannot take it already.. i think i'm gonna fail for this module.. shit..!! how??
hmz.. randy and us have this dance thing going on.. our group name was MISECESS.. dun ask me what that means cos i'm not gonna tell.. hahaz.. anyway, had some problem at first.. sigh.. firstly.. hardly got time to practise or choreograph the dance steps.. then moreover, the group members seems some what reluctant.. sigh.. i dunno how oso.. Randy look sad.. (-_-)!!! but anyway, in the end, we came to a decision.. go on with the dance!! oh.. yahz.. we got our own dance shirt.. woo!! so nice.. hahaz.. jealous right?? black shirt with pink and gold logo.. so big big logo!!! awww!!!
now sitting in class.. having siti lesson.. sianz 1/2.. i wanna go home!! but i cannot.. cos gotta stay back for dance.. persevere.. have to stay til the end.. hmz.. dunno what to do now.. finish my stuff le.. but dun think can go back worz.. ahhh!! i wanna cry le lahz..
Alicia ali.. i wan go batam.. but who is gng?? i dunno got money anot worz.. sigh.. later u go with all ya frenz pang sei me how?? i wil cry de worz.. sobb sobb.. make sure i flood the whole batam.. humph.. =p
Agnes nes.. u gng anot?? sigh.. i cannot tahan zack.. pls next time if he ask for ya number DUN GIF TO HIM!!! i dun wan talk to him le.. i dun wan to remember IMC.. hahaz.. i dun even want to go to Suntec.. stil sianz of that place..
Edwin oei.. so long nv hear frm u le.. so how are u lately worz?? enter TP le ar?? u and da sao how le?? or got new one sia?? hahaz.. saw ya blog got new gal call.. erm.. i forget her name le.. hmz.. jus another new gal lahz.. anyway, hope ya doing fine lorz..
Randy dun sad le lahz.. i know how u feel lahz.. can see from ya face when u talk to them abt the dance today.. anyway, i think there's stil time to actually consider whether we want to take part anot.. cos once we all enter le then there's no more backing out no matter what.. so think properly and everyone agree and decide then we go for it worz.. if not later like last time like that.. quarrel.. sigh.. don't worry, no matter what i'll always be there for u worz.. *smile* so go ahead with that decision ba..
hmz. think i'll jus stop here.. wil blog again soon.. in the meantime, take care guys.. miss me k?? *winkie*
Love Candy
A Never Ending Love
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
Poof!! Time sure flies fast.. Did not update anything for the whole of Feb.. Why?? Bcos i have been real busy.. Doing those workshop things in school.. Everyday inside the suana and steam.. Knock.. Saw.. Drill.. Gosh!! Those work is so Hell.. I almost want to hack the stupid teacher.. All he know how to do is to say.. "yahz.. very interesting.. what is that?? " and "what abt adding.. what if that.." sigh.. please.. Shut the crap up.. don't do u complain.. do u oso complain.. then what for do?? why not sit around and play BINGO better sia.. then he will start his slogan.. " don't waste ya time here.. u all are no young anymore.. no longer 16 or 17.." A piece of shit.. what kind of teacher say that man.. anyway.. nowadays oso dunno why the heck i go to school.. everyday reach sch at 8 for assembly.. (if not Foo wan to scold.. then say dun go assembly next two hours absent..) anyway.. lesson suppose to start at 8.15am.. he always open the workshop door at 8.30am.. after that my class those malays guys will slowly stroll in close to 9am.. Hell.. and he is like half way through talking.. then have to start all over again.. by the time he finish talking is abt 9.30am-9.45am.. start to do our work.. the stupid teacher walk around criticising our thing.. sianz.. then slightly before 10am he say.. "okie class.. go for break.. come back at 10.30am" pengz.. so fast!!! oso nv reali do any work.. no choice.. kena chase out of the workshop.. go for break.. then return to class at 10.45am.. cos he always nv open the door on time de.. hmz.. then go back class continue do my work.. then around 11.45am he say.. "okie class.. go for lunch.. come back at 1am" pengz.. what is this?? sianz 1/2 lorz.. better dun go sch.. after lunch go back workshop at 1.30pm.. do work again.. then around 2.45pm he say break again.. wah kao.. he is stepping on my nerves lorz.. break ends at 3.15pm.. then go back class.. by 4pm he say.. "okie class... pack up.." what the f**k.. if he minus all the break i think i can go home during lunch time sia.. sianz.. dun talk abt sch le.. more and more cannot make it.. feel like using the saw in the workshop and saw him into many many pieces.. then go sandpaper.. sigh..
anyway.. these days real sianz lorz.. hmz.. went to watched 2 films.. "The Fog" and "Final Destination 3".. Please don't go the fog.. cos that movice reali cannot make it.. save ya money guys.. that show totally sucks!! Not as scary as the trailer.. My frenz can stil cry in the end saying that it is touching.. what the hell man.. funny right?? at the end of that movie i almost want to kill the director cos that movie so lame.. and i turn over, she ask me got tissue anot.. see her tears rolling down.. pengz.. i almost faint.. then the next time went to see final destination 3.. not bad lahz.. so gross.. those ppl die so horribly.. eee.. can see how u die before u actuali die.. oh gosh!!! anyway.. my other frenz scare till take the popcorn box to cover her face.. and she was sitting beside me.. got extra sound effect.. the show haven reach that part she already got the "pang!! oh my god!!.. hahaz.. then the most funny thing is that she scare til she throw popcorn.. and u know what?? it ended most of it on my sit.. sigh.. funny right??
hmz.. sianz lahz.. my house painting.. then change the style of my room abit.. then actuali wanted to put my "O" level art paper one de canvas in my living room.. cos the colour matching.. but then that day met up with Ali go back sec sch to take and that stupid f88king teacher Yong say cannot take back.. then stil talk to me so sacarstically.. almost shout on the phone in sch.. she dun even dare to come out of the staff room to talk to us.. her ex student.. what kind of teacher is this?? ask her go die lahz.. dun let me see her on the road outside lorz.. i sure make her walk here and crawl back sia.. ali oso angry.. ahhh!! my vocalno want to erupt le.. *something is burning*
think stop here lahz.. i dun wan blog le.. so sianz.. my head pain.. finger pain.. (kena cut).. heart pain.. eyes pain.. i miss u guys.. i miss those days when we are happily together in sch and class.. sigh.. nitez all.. love u..
Love Candy
A Never Ending Love
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