Monday, November 24, 2008
Hahaz.. was blogging during Chris lesson just now.. luckily he was kinda engaged with Daniel in some conversation to notice if not he will sure scold me again..
So bored.. i have so much think on hand to do but i just dun feel like doing it at all.. gotta submit VI project this thursday yet my group is kinda like only halfway through.. OMG!!! Shitty work..
Weekend seems to pass super fast.. Many things have happen through this week and i'm not sure about how i feel towards certain things.. sigh.. why must god play a spot of me? Why did i see something which i did not want to see?? Why did it makes me so upset?? Why am i crying.. Why?? I tried to believe you.. i try.. but why is it times and again u make it seems like you are not worthy of it.. Friends don't lie to friends and i believe u shouldn't.. If you think you can keep me like that in the dark, you are wrong.. How can you.. I treat you with all the kindness that i have, with all my heart and you, i am not your clown.. not a joke.. although i kept quiet and keep everything to myself but i am not dumb.. i don't want to lose you but i have my limit and i hope that u don't try to test my patient because i only have one nerve left for u and you are standing on it.. If letting you go is the best solution, i will..
Sigh.. didn't go for LKY lesson today.. was real tired and kinda sick.. felt a little bad when i saw him around the corridor when i arrive in school around 4pm for Rhino class..
Feeling very emotional these days.. tears seems unable to contain itself anymore.. i kinda break down and cry more often these days.. why.. why is my life turning into this..
Went to Raffles Hotel as my distant relative celebrate his 80th birthday.. hmz.. will update the pictures later when i am more in the mood.. i don't feel like doing anything now.. nope at all.. i just want to wrap myself up, crawl into bed and hide there till the problems all go away.. i am not myself and i hate it.. i want the once cheerful me back again..
A Never Ending Love
Friday, November 21, 2008
Been waiting and hoping for the day to come.. Oh my.. so long and finally it is here.. Hmz.. school actually starts at 1pm.. was thinking of going school late however, was talking to Koh Mei yesterday on msn and was told that the VI group project have to rhino the product instead of using other means such as photoshop or illustrator.. Sigh.. so sad.. i thought i could sleep in but.. no way.. Woke up as usual around 6 plus.. went to school with my mum.. was super early.. i reached school around 8am.. oh my.. so went to mac to grab a bite then chill there to read a few pages of my new book and also start drawing for the inforgraphics lesson later if not i've got nnothing to show.. it was real hard to draw on the grid.. the infographics symbols are to be drawn on graph paper.. hahaz.. GRAPH PAPER!!! how long have i not touch that stuff man.. and damn!!! it is really real hard to draw especially with thick pencil or pen tip.. (Will update pictures later..) anyway, went to level 6 and look for my senior.. did the rhino in the year 3 studio.. hahaz.. "woo"!! got a feel of how next year gonna be.. yeah!!! anyway, finished doing the rhino modelling around 12 plus but have not render yet cos need to let the senior see and she is not around.. she went to art friend to get material for her project.. so i went down to level 5 cos later class will be held there.. sigh.. the previous class has not end yet therefore got to wait outside awhile.. heck.. but lickily it's only for awhile then Shan and kang arrive.. hmz..
Shirley class was okiez.. quite a number of people was late today.. not sure why.. so she kinda start witht the consultation first with the few of us who is there early.. i started first.. didn't do much this week.. just show her a few pieces of exploration sketches.. class as usual, lecture and lecture.. so after lecture, i can leave... muhahaha.. class start at around 1.30pm and by 3.20, i can leave.. so happy.. cos friday suppose to end around 5pm.. oh yeah!!! sigh.. bad news.. mid crit for infographic is like two week away.. haven really did any solid work.. not sure what crap i'm gonna show again.. not sure why this semester, i feel kinda slack.. the modules are more to lecture and assignment except for a few but i just can't seems to really concentrate.. why?? sigh.. need to focus.. Buck up Gal!!!
Tired tired.. wanna sleep already.. got to do more housework tomorrow.. also got to do some of the school assignment like studio as well as otheres that need to draw and stuff.. won't be free on sunday.. got some relative gathering.. one of my distant uncles is celebrating his 80th birthday.. woo.. i not sure whether i can live that old.. hmz.. he hosting a banquet at Raffles Hotel and has invite my whole family as well as my grandma and auntie side to attend.. i think it's gonna be quite grand.. rich family.. what to do.. some people care just "hao ming".. not sure will i ever have that.. i hope ba.. sometime we just have to dream.. dream big.... lolz..
Gonna change my blog skin soon.. kinda bored with it though i really like it alot.. a little old and classic.. like those that feature on the old and romantic love story.. not sure what to change.. noo idea yet.. gotta think..
Think i will stop blogging.. will update some pictures the next time i blog.. hahaz.. my pathetic inforgraphics drawing and maybe some others ba.. Nighty night..
Love Candida
A Never Ending Love
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Hmz.. where should i start blogging?? School?? i guess so..
School was alright.. First lesson was VI.. discuss the concept with my group mates and OMG, we have not even finalize which concept to use.. Have not done mock up or developed any of the ideas.. We are way way behind schedule.. What the heck!!! Sigh.. sad.. a few of my group members are not really helping.. whenever i asked the, about the ideas or ask for suggestion, the only reply i always get is a shrugged or anything lahz.. can lahz.. Shitty.. Come on.. it is a group project.. why can't i have better group for VI.. the last semester was bad.. So sad, now we got to like "chiong" to catch up cos submission date is next week.. got to hand up 2 A2 presentation board, design journal and mock up.. so many.. how can i finish?? i think got to burn mignight oil for the next few days..
After VI, went to the library with wiwi, yvonne, kimi, ah lai and ziwei.. hmz.. borrowed another 4 books for Scott lesson.. then after went back to class to put the books before going to tabao lunch.. hmz.. ate in class then after that slack around before Scott class start.. Wasn't really paying much attention during his class.. was drawing for studio.. can't really hear what Scott was saying cos he was like speaking so softly.. and the ppt slides wording is so so small.. Oh man.. how to concentrate.. assignment was given and i hae got no idea what to do.. hahaz.. After tons and tons of explanation, i still don;t understand.. shit.. how am i going to do the assignment?? Stupid..
Sigh.. enough of school.. It's sad and pathetic.. Went back quite early today.. not sure what to eat for dinner then decide to cook.. went to cold storage to buy some barang barang then granny called.. ask me whether want to meet her to eat dinner as she is alone.. so told her i'm cooking ask her to join.. so met her at causeway point and go back home together.. Cooked Japanese curry and mushroom for dinner.. Japanese curry consist of chicken thigh cut cubes, carrots, potatoes, long beans and onion.. was not bad though.. Hmz.. i am so so full now.. a satisfied meal.. lolz..
Infographics tomorrow and i have not done anything.. i don't feel like doing.. don't know what to do.. maybe i'll just scribble in class.. hahaz..
Stop here.. watching the taiwan million star.. bye bye..
Love Candida
A Never Ending Love
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Home at last.. hmz.. went to library earlier on.. borrowed another 8 books again.. hahaz.. finished reading my 15th book this afternoon.. Went to MOS for dinner with my brother cos mum has Yoga today.. OMG!!! The service was super bad.. When we was in the queue, me and bro hear one of the crew member say, " where is the key? this is my favorite counter you know.. it's my counter.." with a very bitchy tone.. wow!!! sound exactly like my stupid cousin.. hahaz.. BITCHY!!! Luckily she is not the one who serve us if not i think my brother is gonna like bitch back.. Hahaz.. But the one that kinda serve us is no better.. She is so super slow in taking order, in keying the orders, in giving us the drinks at the counter, receiving the money, keeping the cash and walking.. Wat the.. she even wrote the wrong order and forgot to give us the soup.. when we walk back to inform her, she have us a whatever kind of attitude.. Write us the wrong order also.. sigh.. went asked for nuggets and then when the food arrive, it become butterfly prawns.. sigh..Come on, times are bad now, people are getting retrenched and here, you are giving such a bad service.. Never forget her name, "Nora.." Sigh.. Spoil my mood for dinner.. To me, MOS suppose to be one of the best service among the fast food.. but i doubt it now.. My brother complain about the rice burger.. " yakiniku rice burger.. He say the serving is so damn small.. even a packet of fries is more filling.. Lolz.. The food was real bad.. my Fish burger was kinda in a mess.. and PLEASE DO NOT DRINK THE CLAM CHOWDER at MOS.. it is super duper not nice.. yucks!!! me and my bro suppose to share one but i kinda gave up drinking it after a few spoon.. my brother managed to drink about 1/4 before surrendering.. See.. even bro cannot take it.. so bad..
Hmz.. saw someone reading eclipse at MOS.. oh my.. so tempting.. i want to read too.. sobb sobb.. i want i want..
School today was plain boring.. Had a entrepreneurship talk.. Damn.. it was boring.. falling asleep.. was drawing the whole time.. hahaz.. show u all.. i did it in the dark..
Did the second one in class the other day.. wasn't finish.. hahaz.. gonna do it another day during boring class.. will show again when i am done.. lolz.. Oh yahz.. going back to the school topic.. me shan and kang went to eat at north canteen halfway thru.. lolz.. Really cannot stand those talk.. Saw our lecturer while waiting for kang outside.. asked him whether we can go off earlier.. hahaz.. guess what he say.. he say that we can!!! but have to do it quietly.. one by one.. oh my.. i think he knows we cannot take it..
Damn.. it has been raining in the afternoon for days.. my slipper is wet and slippery.. oh man.. went back with Shan today.. hmz.. had our legs plus slippers soaked into the water on the uneven floor while walking to the MRT station.. sigh.. yucks!!!
funny thing.. me, shan and kang are all heading to the library after school but however, all are going to a different library.. hmz.. never been to the one at Yishun.. newly open.. i think i might visit it one of these days.. maybe ask shan whether is it big..
Tired tired.. watching the hong kong forensic show.. nice nice.. watching it for the 3rd time.. i actually have the VCD inside my cupboard.. Cantonese version.. i think that hong kong show must actually watched in cantonese version is nicer.. more original..
i think i'll stop blogging here if not i'll never stop.. Good night all.. (^_^)
A Never Ending Love
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
I am so tired.. hardly able to open my eyes this morning when my mum call me up.. zzzzZZZZzzz.. Eyes closing.. Not sure why i am feeling so tired and restless lately.. it is not as if i really sleep very late into the night.. hmz.. i guess sometime long holiday do me no good.. Just cannot seems to adjust back my inner clock..
Been reading alot lately.. Have read..
1. Raven's Gate -Anthony Horowitz
2. Evil Star -Anthony Horowitz
3. Nightrise -Anthony Horowitz
( Now Waiting got book 4 and 5)
4. Twilight - Stephen Mayer
5. New Moon - Stephen Mayer
(No time to buy book 3 and 4.. Sigh.,)
6. Lord Of Seduction - Paula Quinn
7. How To Treat A Lady - Karen Hawkins
8. How To Engage A Earl - Kathryn Caskie
9. Memoirs Of A Geisha - Arthur Golden
10. Shades Of Grey - Amanda Ashiey
11. Wicked Lovely
12. Ink Exchange
13. Light Bearer Daughter
14. Fairest - Gail Carson Levine
Hahaz.. read those books all in less than a month.. Cool right.. i think reading often kinda increase my reading speed and now i am reading like super fast.. I just love reading.. Hmz.. i am now reading my 15th book, " The Seduction Of His Wife" by Janet Chapman.. It was about a man who is "dead" or so everyone thinks he is. He is a windowed logger baron who took on a South American engineering project and was reported dead after a rebel attack. When he turned back up in his country Maine very much alive, his grieving family is shocked but however, his biggest shock is to discover that he is not maried to a woman he never met..
Reading sure did help to kill time when i really don;t know what to do such as when i arrive super early in school or on my way back home.. Time seems to pass fast when i am reading and i kinda like that..
Had project studio lesson today.. Did some crap drawings.. Hahaz.. don't have the mood to do draw.. got no concept.. Nothing in mind.. Sigh.. Talk to ping ping today at last.. Help her with her concepts.. Hmz.. i haven even done mine.. hahaz.. Took train with Kimi back home.. Was so happy.. The train was completely empty.. Yeah!!! How i wish everyday was like that therefore i can sit..
Don't feel like eating dinner tonight.. no appetite.. Mum just came home, packed food.. I can smell dinner from my room.. the aroma is so strong.. but not tempting.. Hmz.. bored..
I think enough of blogging le ba.. going to read more books and watch some TV..
Lastly, today is Kimez's Birthday.. Happy Birthday To you.. Hope you have a fun day ba.. All the best.. (^_^) Sorry for not being able to celebrate with you or have dinner with you guys.. Make it up to you again.. Sorry.. The cake below is specially for you..
Love Candida
A Never Ending Love
Monday, November 17, 2008
Hahaz.. blogging during Chris lesson again.. yeah!!! so bored.. didn't go for morning class.. was so super tired.. can't wake up.. think gonna sleep earlier next time.. sigh..
So many thing happen during the weekend and i don't know where to start.. i found out something that i think i should not cos it makes me super emotional and upset.. hmz.. i'm not in the mood to tell grandma story now.. maybe later tonight i guess..
I think i better stop blogging here before chris see me blog again.. update tonight..
to Be Continued...
A Never Ending Love
It another monday.. boring.. rhino lesson again.. 7 hours of painfully lectures finally over.. OMG!!! new projects to do.. sigh.. Hahaz.. I am blogging during Chris lesson again!!! Kena scolding yet again..
Anyway, today was a totally boring day with nothing much to do.. I hope time passes by fast if not i am falling asleep soon.. Hmz.. everyone commented on my stupid skirt.. "Killer Bee".. Pengz.. but somehow, i kinda like my skirt.. not sure why.. lolz..
hmz.. i think i better stop blogging now.. if not i get yet another another scolding.. I guess will blog again later when i;m home and when i am not tired.. Life is a total bore..
sigh.. don't feel like stopping.. hmz.. didn't talk to much to my mother today.. guess it was still about the "incident" yesterday.. but it was not totally my fault.. my brother push me and therefore resulted in the shattered glass and a spoil book shelve.. so why am i seem to be the only person blamed? it's sad u know.. mummy didn't even ask me whether did i cut myself.. sigh.. heart breaking.. i cut my fingers while clearing the shattered glass, my leg when the glass broke and landed on my leg as well as my foot while i sweep the glass and accidently step on a tiny winy bit of glass.. it bleeds!!! OMG.. no one care.. so sad..
Oh.. Class starting soon.. i seriously gotta stop.. if not later another remark from my oh so whatever lecturer.. oops~
Love Candida
A Never Ending Love
Saturday, November 15, 2008
Sigh.. i duno why i feel that life is getting more and more boring.. i dunno where to go.. what else to do.. it seems like life is just about school, board game, subrinal and sleep.. i am always tired.. so tired.. hardly can keep myself awake through all those boring lessons.. oh man.. when is all this gonna stop..
I cried this afternoon.. i have no idea why.. a sudden wave of sadness wash over me.. i thought about many things.. all those stuff that happen in the past.. i felt lonely all of a sudden.. no one seems to be there for me anymore.. i'm dunno what i can do.. my heart seems to hurt.. to break.. life just stinks.. i hate it..
clean the whole house this afternoon.. vacuum.. mop.. wipe all those stupid furnitures.. and u know what, i found my bracelet.. yeah!!! i am so so happy.. i thought u was gone and lost forever.. oh my.. how i love it so much.. it meant so much to me!!! (^_^) i'm real glad that i have found it..
tired tired.. i think i'm gonna sleep soon.. there's work to be done but i really don't feel like doing.. who cares~
Love Candida
A Never Ending Love
Monday, November 10, 2008
Sianz.. Yet another monday.. Been busy with the STUPID and SICKENING 3Kingdom board game whole freaking week.. Shit!!! Went back to school on saturday with Shan and Dewi.. Hmz.. boring.. can you imagine spending saturday in school.. OMG.. sick.. Oh.. and u know what, the toilet in Level 5 is haunted.. Oh gosh!!! Me and shan went to the toilet.. then we saw the guy toilet light switch on.. and then, we kept hearing the hand dryer on and off.. after we heard the toiet door opening and closing.. It almost scare the hell out of us man.. Sucks!!! i'm not going back to school to do work on saturday.. Especially not alone..
Hmz.. i am so bored!!! i want to go home.. Board game not complete yet.. sad sad..
Last week is definitely not my week.. lost quite a few things.. my lovely bracelet.. sigh.. been wearing it for almost 5 years.. great sentimental value.. *sobb sobb* .. i lost my phone back cover as well.. can u imagine it.. i also don't know how it gone missing.. so now i'm like using a damn phone without the cover with the battery expose.. pathetic..
Not in the mood for anything.. i'm sorry to those whom i have flare my stupid temper at, to those whom i have not talked to for some time, to those that talk to me and i kinda lost my patient, to those whom i want to care yet have no time to, to those whom i actually have to accompany yet end up did not.. I am truly sorry.. I'm really didn't mean it.. i am just not myself.. and i am tired.. sick with all the things that is happening..
Got to go back to lesson.. Will blog again soon if i feel better ba..
Love Candida
A Never Ending Love
Monday, November 03, 2008
hahaz.. enduring till school end.. OMG!!! i am so tired.. got so much things to do yet time seems to be getting lesser again.. boring!!! i need to finish up the board game mahjong tiles as well as the stand.. and can u believe it, 140 tiles!!! 6 stands.. can u imagine how much time i have to fork out not mentioning about the money.. damn!!! it's not as if they pay us alot.. and it is not as if the game set is manufactured, we can get a set each.. sigh.. they think we're free labour?? i think we worth much more..
Hmz.. lesson!!! lecture for a whole day.. i almost faint!!! having rhino lesson now.. my lecture reading what i am typing.. hmz.. no privacy!!! lolz.. anyway, school is getting busier.. no more time for other things.. so sad.. but what to do.. no choice..
AHHH!! Frantic.. deadline is coming soon.. mid crit, boardgame and studio.. oh my.. God.. pls help me..
Shan has left.. went for her basic theory.. hmz.. all the best.. good luck.. i hope she pass..
hmz.. lesson gonna start le.. oops!!! got to go.. will blog again soon..
Love Candida..
A Never Ending Love
